Sunday, October 28, 2007
opps..its oct n i last blogged in may..haha..
im tired..mentally tired.
cant seem to tab on God's strength..
had some chat w meryl on e way home ytd..something stroke me.
she said strength and confidence shd nt come from ourselves.
but from God.
my confidence seriously almost 100% comes from myself.so how?
think im nt being concern but kpo.i seem to b concern but ppl doesnt feels e same.
they might jus feel tt im being kpo.its all my own wishful part of thinking.
i jus feel so neglected n left out.but i tried to change myself but i suppose it hadnt succeed.
N im tired alrdy.i feel lyk giving up.in fact i had started to gave up.
Monday, May 28, 2007
yoz..today..the most shit thing is that i forget to bring charger for my laptop.ltr go work jiu cannot use liao..haiiz..den nw oso only left abt 55%..ltr mus quickly borrow charger den cannot use during accs lesson cos after tt gt marketing tutorial..make up lesson.nth to do actually cos i reached early n this blog hasent been updated for quite sometym so i decided to drop by.ytd dad say he goona blog connections to the internet at 11..no sms-ing and msn-ing after 11..haiiz..but ytd i try e d-link w my lap still can..btw he still doesnt know i hac a lap..haha..smtyms honestly speaking, i do enjoy disobeying him and doing the opp of wht he says n wants us to do..i can feel e thing nw..he n sis hasent been on gd terms..they don really tok oso..he's trying to get closer to me..cos i oso nt in gd terms w him..i dun tok to him.don even wanna tok to him..den tis few days he starts toking to me n stuff..askin me to do this do tt..cos usually wont..we don even want to hav anything to do w each other..i see my life starting to become miserable..haiix..
Sunday, May 13, 2007
wow..it'll be exactly 1 mth tmr since i last blog here..today i dunno wht to buy for mothers' day..i end up buying a pig toy for her..i shdnt hav..seriously shdnt hav..she din appreciate n say wanting to give away..e most say thks den say wanna give it away cos she doesnt need it..but cant u at least say thks?u hurt me..!!i shall be smarter next tym..could hav saved my 8 bucks.one wk pocket money.idiot..i'll learn to b smarter nxt tym round.i promise u i'll nt even give u any thing for ur bday next next wk.thks 4 bringing me up..tts all!
Saturday, April 14, 2007
i jus realise tt i din hav a cake frm my family this yr..seems they hav kind of forgotten..but nvm.i don give a damn any more..jus nw mum came in n nagged at me agn about e company im working for n my desk when i was thinking of packing it..damn IRRITATING!idiot shit!
well..its been a v long tym since i last blog here..haha..kind of free cos dad's at home so i cant watch tv..me n him hav been quite strain recently cos i dint wanted to work for him..do a ppt slide presentation..so he got kinda of fadup..n cos i was super free watching tv all day long using com watch youtube..he caught me twice..ya..i wanted to watch all i could u see..haha..ya so he somehow doesnt allows me to watch tv..ya..kk shall nt tok about him..recently join a company called sunshine empire..paid 310 bucks..den ya..practically my job is to intoduce my friends to the company..haha..kind of doubt it..but its lyk no turning back but strictly speaking is hav la..jus continue for e tym being n e least try to earn back cos i spent 80 odd bucks to buy formal wear..ya..n nid to recup my exp as well as my investment..cos e money suppose to take go invest actually got reserved for my sch fees..haiiz..sad huh..dad opened e investment acc but i guess its empty inside..if i go ask him means i lose this cold war le los..even though i promise to settle this cold war thing..haiz..life lyk tt i suppose..but oso ok la..i closed one deal today..2day was my second appt..w vic..desheng was 1st..i dint even did b push sharon 'did' actually..n vic jus nod n join..haha..she din really think tt much as i did..haha..
well starting sch e day aft which is on mon..hopfully this 3 yrs goes smoothly n ya..jus hope n pray everything's gonna be ok n normal n stuff..i dunno..n its apr alrdy..wow..fast..4 out of 12 mths hav past n 2 more mths is lyk june..n i realise my one sem is lyk 4 to 5 mths only..haha..acyually e same la..haha..one term lyk 2 mths..haha..kkz..im bullshitting..my table is in a mess aas usual..gotta pack it since im starting skool..haha..n oso i nid space..haha..smtym i oso cant stand e mess-ness myself..haha..ok..i think i'll stop here..yup..see ya..
Saturday, February 24, 2007
my bday jus past..im 17 liao..kkz..deres this person who tag me w e name as -..so i wondered whos tt..thouh i hpe to be vic or cheryl but after some thought n lil 'investigation' don looks lyk its them..in any case thks to tt person..cos truthfully tts e only person who tag me happy birthday e rest is i ownself add de..for show..haha..i know im watever so,so sorry..but jus din want it to be alone..ya..so im thankful to tt person..kkz..im gng to sleep..lucky i found sis ezlink card..haha..thk God too..muacks..
this yr bday kinda lonely past..havent cut cake yet cos family celebrating only aft sis n dad's exams..ya..so den broke up w phua n vic so oso din go out celebrate den oso nvr go out so din really received much presents..only 3 so far from athena dad n cecelia..dad de is kind of display so my desk so messy don really shine..cecelia gave me bk gd bk but still reading..den athena gave me a micky necklace its nice..lyk it oso..so over all all oso gd..haha
kkz..gonna slp nitez
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
well..though nw is thurs..but take it as wed 1st..wed..its 1wk since me n cheryl phua fan lian..we fall out on e 14..woOo..v.day..haha..okok..den when fri comes its 1wk since i fall out w vicky..which is on e 16..well..i guess i have alrdy left things as its own le..i don say sorry anymore..its enough le..i did my part..so for nw i'll concentrate on e other friends who really care for me as well as bao bei athena..been reading matt..shame huh..i nvr read e whole bk b4..jus a few verses..well God told me to read it but thks to cheryl..cos e incident made me listen to His Voice..den smth learnt..God came not for those who r righteous but sinners..well tt was e verse tt caught my attention ytd..ok..nw gotta go read another 2 to 3 verse den orh orh le..nitez..
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